Okay so I'm setting up here at the apartment and lemme tell you: it's BITCHIN'! Puto is back in Fairmont till the 15th so It's just the Grue swingin' solo in DeKalb. I'm riding a weak net signal right now and the cable guy won't be able to come till the 22nd so it's nothing but stolen internet and Marx Bros. DVDs till then.


Once I get solid Net then I'll post pics of the compound. I'm quite impressed myself...


I miss my cats, though, and it's weird not having my family so close. At least when I lived at FU's College Dump I was still in town...

But this is cool. It's rainin' like mother here, though, so I'm gonna guess the big firework show is canceled tonight. Sigh...Looks like it's just gonna be me, some beer, and Season One of Ren and Stimpy tonight...


Happy 4th!

i'm moving tuesday and all the sudden oh god i am so not ready for all of this seriously i cannot do this at all who the hell will love my cats?

Billy Mayes. Former WVU Mountaineer. Greatest. Pitchman. Ever.




NEVER FORGET 6/28

http://www.dailykos.com/storyonly/2009/6/28/747754/-TV-Spokesman-Billy-Mays-Dead


BILLY MAYES?!?!?!?! BILLY MAYES?!??!!?

Okay, so it's time for my 2 cents on the King of Pop's passing:


MJ was a musical genius. Seriously. While watching the video for 'Bad' my mom reminded me that he choreographed the entire thing himself which took a total of 2 months. 'Thriller'? Oh hell yes on that too. Shit, 'Scream' is one of my faves.

I always felt bad for him because let's be honest: Joe Jackson fucked all those kids up...Which I am safe to assume is the reason why MJ turned out (in the end) how he did. Molestation charges aside, he was still pretty much off his nut. Musical talent out the ass, but still...

I honestly always felt he probably homosexual and could never, ever come to terms with this fact. I may be wrong on this and if I am then I am, but still I always felt he could never come to terms with his sexuality. Of course, he was always trying to make up for a lost childhood so...

I dunno...had MJ been given a normal upbringing and STILL got discovered...maybe he'd be...okay. But, it is what it is and he's dead. Personally to me, he died years ago...


Oh, and the flick 'Moonwalker' stars a young Sean Lennon:



Fuck it, I'm downloading this movie. I loved it back in the day.

Final Fantasy VII is now available for PSP download.


Guess what I've been playing....


(Oh Cid Highwind, you sexy fuck...)

First Ed McMahon....then Farrah...


Now the King of Pop himself:

http://wbztv.com/national/michael.jackson.hospitalized.2.1059770.html


I guess shit really does happen in threes...

This is Neda. I've sure you've all heard of her. I few days ago I watched the clip of her death. I didn't post it sooner because...it still bother me.



Everytime I watch this clip I get very emotional. I think it's at the very end when all her family starts to wail. Did you notice how, at the beginning, it's like she's looking directly into the camera...at us?

Could you die for something like that? Would you have the guts to stand up like she did?

All this trouble in Iran has made me rewatch 'Perseoplis' a number of times.


I can only hope some good comes out of this...that Neda's death wasn't for nothing, but as usual I highly doubt things will change.



Desiderata
by Max Ehrmann

Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible, without surrender,
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly, and listen to others,
even to the dull and ignorant;
they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons;
they are vexatious to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be
greater and lesser persons than yourself.

Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career
however humble;
it is a real possession in the
changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs,
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you
to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself.
Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love,
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit
to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.

And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore, be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life,
keep peace in your soul.
With all its sham,
drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.

blow me

So yeah, God hasn't said anything else as of late and to be honest that's fine with me.


I really cannot believe I'm leaving in a lil over a week. I'm still in denial. I know this.



I bought a metal Pac Man lunchbox circa 1980. With the thermos. Good condition. 20 bucks.


Also spent some time in Point Pleasant. You know: Mothman's hood.



Um....Chinese food?



Oh, Happy Patriarchs' Day Dad. Hope you like the St. Francis statue for the yard. It's not St. Christopher, it's St. Frank.



My sister had a metal 'Welcome Back Kotter' lunchbox back in the 70s. Lucky hoochie.


you know, when you vomit up loads of rice...it's like a million maggots pouring out of your mouth.


Have fun being married. *snort giggle*

Um...



...I'm pretty sure God talked to me today. Not...direct voice...but yeah.



...I'm not really sure what to do with this message.




Basically, I'm convinced Christ was familiar with the life and teachings of Socrates and viewed himself as a contemporary, especially when it came to his death/crucifixion.


I dunno...Maybe I just need to get some sleep....

Oh, look at this Lovely Gem I found in my Inbox today:




Dear Tessa,

I'm coming to you-at this quite late date-as our the top person on our waitlist. Any chance that you'd be able to take us up on an acceptance to the MFA Book Arts/Printmaking Program at the University of the Arts?

We haven't taken anyone from a waitlist for the past two years. But the two years before that, our waitlist persons (accepted late) turned out to be among the very strongest students, perhaps the top.

Anyway, let me know where you stand with this.

You should also know that we're recommending that you be offered a financial aid award (which includes an assistantship), amounting to approximately 25% of tuition.

I do hope your plans for next year aren't yet settled and that you can join up. I'm sure you'd add a great deal to the program.

Best wishes,
Susan



You know, my homeroom teacher at FSHS used to tell me "God made man so he couldn't kick his own ass for a good reason".

No, no...I shall not stew over the What-Ifs...NIU offered first and all is settled.





...Oh but ti be back in Philadelphia again....

Don't take too long to think about it. List 15 books you've read that will always stick with you -- The first 15 you can recall in 15 minutes.



Ahhh.........


1. 1984 - George Orwell
2. Gravity's Rainbow - Thomas Pynchon
3. Oryx and Crake - Margaret Atwood
4. The Handmaid's Tale - Margaret Atwood
5. Snow Crash - Neal Stephenson
6. Sex, Drugs, and Coacoa Puffs - Chuck Kloisterman
7. The Pigman - Paul Zindle
8. Slaughterhouse 5 - Kurt Vonnegut Jr.
9. Neuromancer - William Gibson
10. Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas - Hunter s. Thompson
11. World War Z - Max Brooks
12. Cat's Eye - Margaret Atwood
13. Battle Royal - Koushun Takami
14. American Psycho - Bret Easton Ellis
15. Catch-22 - Joseph Heller

Last night I saw NIN with Jane's Addiction. It was NIN's 'Wave Good-Bye' tour.


Meaning, after this they will end touring for good.

Yes, it's true:

http://www.pastemagazine.com/articles/2009/02/nine-inch-nails-announces-tour-with-janes-addictio.html

Sigh...


At least I'll have the endorphin high from seeing Reznor...this will last a week or so...


But at least I got to see it, at least I was there.

So, my 'Rents gave me 35 bucks to spend for my B-Day which I blew at Amazon on books:

-Good-Bye, Chunky Rice
-Parasite Eve
-Naked Lunch
-Ghost World
-Street Market
-Drop Dead Cute
-Blood and Guts in High School
-Bright Lights, Big City


All used and very cheap. I paid shipping.

Guess who got tickets to see Nine Inch Nails as a birthday gift???

Oh, and Jane Addiction will be there too.



Next Wednesday at 6PM.



HAR HAR HAR HAR HAR!

As of Friday I turn 25....






.....oh gawd...

I'm better now. No more cold...hopefully.


Just working a gathering things for the move. On the one hand I'm all amped to go out there and start printing, but on the other hand I really don't want to leave the beauty of the Empire.

I used to say 'I live in Fairmont and I shall die in Fairmont': not as a wish but as a truth.

This town has been good to me, compared to where I came from. I'm glad to leave but then I am not....

I've had thing song, 'River Man' by Nick Drake, running in my head all week:


It just sounds like Fairmont...on an overcast day....

I'm really going to miss all of this. I know that my prints will be of my life here. I mean...I'm just....I don't know. I don't know....I've buried to much of myself here. I wasn't upset when we left Beckley, hell I was born there, but I never missed it. I wept for Philadelphia...and I shall weep for thee, Fairmont....

Once upon a time I did, for someone other than Puto...I tried to change myself and slumped into one of the worst depressions ever. It wasn't a healthy love...It was a bad time...

Grab your barf bags!

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